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Recently I’ve been feeling less depressed. This is accompanied by frequent thoughts of “I’m not depressed.”

When I’m met with adverse emotions, I think “I’m not depressed, I’m upset” or “I’m anxious.”

There is still a deep well, when I think about the end of G4 coming up. I have a lot of friend who have grown and, found significant others and have leapt in their careers, and to them MLP is something they can proudly tuck in their back pockets or put on the mantles of their new homes, and carry that in their path forwards.

I may have put too much of myself into this. I’m still something of a nothing burger, and though as this ends I’ll continue to draw pony, I can’t help but think “what am I, outside of this?”

It’s not something I like to think about. But, I’m not depressed. It’s something else. Just don’t have a proper name for it yet.